You don't always know what you are getting yourself into (or what is going to be getting into you) when you buy street food, but it is almost always delicious in its own way. Not always in the way you are hoping it to be, but the flavors here are fantastic! I am living without a fridge. I have no appliances, actually, and I am thankful for this daily reminder that my daily food comes from the Lord. I cannot simply open up a fridge, pull out a container, pop it in the microwave, and BOOM. Dinner. This means I have to be more generous as well, since food goes bad sitting out in the heat of my rented room all day. I am overwhelmed by God's goodness in the area of food. I do not want for food, especially since I have been unofficially "adopted" by a small Thai family who sells some of the best food I have tried yet. They sell right by the corner of the ally I live on and have determined to take care of me. I have loved getting to know them. They truly are a blessing straight from God.
Sticking with this theme of food, however, I want to share something that God put on my heart during my first month here in Thailand (a message that has continued to hold true). During immersion week, God directed my thoughts to Psalm 81:10, in which He says, "I am the Lord your God who brought you up out of Egypt. Open wide your mouth and I will fill it." To me, it has meant being open to whatever God wants to bring into my life. To whatever He wants to cut from my life. It has also meant I am seeing His tangible blessings on the daily, coming from places I would never have expected.
This idea of "opening wide" can be difficult on various levels. It requires trust. I can't help but picture my response when someone comes up to me and tells me to "open wide and close my eyes." UMM excuse me?! What are you going to put in my mouth? Something nasty? Tasty? Let me see it first. Common sense tells me that people like to play pranks, that knowing before trusting is the wiser choice. And yet, God does not typically offer us the option of knowing what He will bring our way. He calls us to trust. Will He actually put something good into our lives? If we open up to Him in trust, do as He asks and be vulnerable, will our tongues be burned? There is this underlying assumption that we know what is best for us. Yet, isn't God the Creator of our souls? We have to trust that the Giver knows what we need more than we do. Opening wide to God requires action. You cannot be filled by refusing to follow the Giver's invitation, and a life woven with these threads of refusal is marked by spiritual starvation. Faith beyond obedience directs us to not simply open up to God's plans in a tangible, action-driven way, but to also let that trust and that obedience permeate our heart. It requires patient expectancy. God choses to fill our mouths, our lives, in His own time and way. You cannot chose when and how He will act. You can wait in expectation that He will not leave you sitting there like an idiot with your mouth open, however. Comforting, yeah? :) I think so.
Trusting can be challenging. And yet, what kind of God do we serve? Not One who will sneak plastic into our lunch, but One who sees us, who knows us, who loves us intimately and completely. This love gives us the space and freedom to trust. May God grant us a deeper knowing of His love that we may trust and love Him in a mouth-wide-open capacity!
|View from the wash-area on my room's floor.|